skipped school today. crazy sick.  pfft. yesterday, i was awake for only 5 hours? no joke. lol. okay back to sleep.

just got back. been a long day. im sick and worn out, all i want to do is sleep. goodnight.

been a long while since i go to any kind of gathering, my communication skills are just beyond awkward now- there’s no word for it.

down with fever.

dont know if i can survive through ber’s party tmr. sigh. i feel so ………. unprepared):

always in our heart.

3rd of february. this date two years ago, i’ll never forget.

every single thing that happened that week is still so damn fresh in my mind. i can neither say i’ve gotten over it, nor can i say i’ve forgotten about it… i think,… it’s just something i’ve learnt to put aside and never had the guts to face it and deal with it.

3/2/2008, we lost someone we love. I, lost an aunt. i lost someone i’ve helped taken care of every single day for almost a year or more. as much as i want to forget that moment on sunday morning, 930am, i can’t. it’s so damn fresh in my mind. i remembered not crying ‘cos everyone else was crying so bad. i was just, stoned. so.. sudden. so so… sudden. half an hour later when everything finally sink into my mind, that she’s gone, forever, i cried. and i couldn’t stop. when i read the Yaasin for her, i still couldnt stop crying. it was a mix of not seeing her ever again, the fact that it’s so sudden, and somewhere, there was a bit of regret in me. earlier that week, i gave up hope, and now i regret it. i wish i could have done more. i Should have done more. argh.

that night, when we were all lying down in the living room in the dark, reminicising about her,… they told me she had been asking for me the past week (i suddenly started working earlier that week…. because i needed it…but i guess i was guilty so i didnt tell her i got a job…) she only liked my style of carrying her. right then, i started crying so bad. i should have been there. i should have been there that week… 

this date, two years ago, still fresh in my mind.

cik sumi, we still remember you. cik sam always talks about you. you were a  good person. someone with a kind heart. every single person who visited us after you left had only good things to say about you. for all the things you have done for me and my family, thank you and i’m sorry. i’m really really sorry i could have done more. i should have been there that week. i should have been there. i’m sorry.

we miss you… you’re always in our hearts…. i really mean that..

sexy bear

been so long guys ^^

did anyone miss me? :X

ANYWAY, my classmate gave me this cute bear today. cute right? bear going to school too pfft.

busy week ahead….

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