long takpenting thoughts

just want to say that i’m suffering from over-exhaustion! haha whatever that means seh.

anyway have been out almost every day since my “campfire” day and gosh, today was THE limit! damn exhausting sia. i really want to stay at home the whole day indulging myself with goodies from alshin haven and have a good proper spazzing chat with alshinners and finish reading ber’s now-turn-yellow book(sorry!) and just oh gosh, just R E L A X ! it’s damn exhausting having to spend more than half a day going out. not that i’m antisocial (or maybe i am) or what, just that, sighs, i just want to relax! i want to have a day to myself reflecting on alot of things and just think of plan B all over again! everything’s moving too fast i wish time will just slow down for me to enjoy every happy moments. of course, by all means, speed up back when sad moments come hahaha.

btw, my hands are so so so itchy to change blog… AGAIN!!! i realised this urge happens at least once in two years. tsk. tsk. tsk. oh and yest, i cleaned up my closet. like finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay la, only the top part. the below part can do another day. point is, i finally clean it! a lot of treasure inside ah. most of it are just presents and presents and presents since sec school days. (primary school we dont give each other presents ah, no money yet) oh dear, memories……………………………………………….

aiyah, i dont like ah when this happens, make me think so much! like really alot! when was the last time i did that ? last year???? not that i havent been thinking about it, i mean, it’s ALWAYS THERE! just that i always managed to psycho myself to think happy thoughts happy thoughts happy thoughts so it always end up at the back of my mind. -shrugs- self denial you may say. i say, i’m just collecting all the sad stuffs together till one day i’ll explode then the cycle goes on and on. bao ka liao ah like that. it’s working for me at least, though sometimes i do ask myself if i’m really really happy when i say i’m happy. hah, what IS happy???!

sighs. is this getting too tense for you to read? sorry ah. write already and i dont feel like censoring whatever im saying today. happy thoughts happy thoughts bye!!!

this post is so tak perlu. bleah.

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p/s: happy birthday to Nat! my new friend, who never fail to amaze/amuse me everytime she “speaks” malay! i really wonder how it’d be like to actually meet her in person. hmm. either we’d be stoning (since we both stones) or we’ll be laughing nonstop (because her sense of humour same frequency with mine ah, not bad hahahha) or well, she’ll be self-cam ing and i’ll be gladly left out of the photos since i cant even take proper NORMAL photos to save my life. hahha! cheers.