Archive for March, 2009

stuffs…

Posted in days on March 31, 2009 by iylinot

oh, look who came this morning.
oh,look who zu saw yesterday.

i had so much to say to him and scream into his face. so many things about him that pisses me off. so bloody many things. i plucked up enough courage to go out and then maybe, give him a piece of my mind. backing abang up. you know how you read in books, how they say ” felt something like a lump in my throat. “  right after i went out, i literally felt it right then. somehow all courage i have mustered up just disappeared. i knew if i even say a freaking syllable about what i really feel, i’ll just end up crying like a total loser. fck. i had so much to say, but i didnt want to come out totally weak either. so i just shut up and watch as abang just fight his case. which makes me feel really bad as well, because lately,  i do have some negative impression of him  and we havent been as close as we were and…. looking at him now, made me feel a bit regretful about all the things i thought of him this couple of months. what i see a moment ago was that big brother figure i’ve dearly dearly missed. and for the other man at the other end of the line,

i used to love this man.

what happened to him?…

tough.

Posted in days on March 30, 2009 by iylinot

p3170782

i’m not “emo”ing or what, but fact is, this is (since a long long long while) a very tough period of time for me.

this is…. hard.

i’m amazed that i can hold on till this long but it’s frustrating when i dont know how long more i CAN last.

holding my breath everyday.

and one day, i’ll crack.

 

crack. crack. crack.

cracked.

 

Posted in days on March 28, 2009 by iylinot

i’ve been very troubled lately , but i dont know if it’ll make sense to anyone…. so yeah…

so nuriylianabteomar, DEAL WITH IT!

Posted in days on March 26, 2009 by iylinot

money is f-king EVERYTHING.

ok.ko

Posted in days on March 24, 2009 by iylinot

when i’m okay, i say i’m okay.
when i’m not okay, i say im okay.
tell me it’s okay to be not okay.
so i can tell you i’m not okay.
so i can finally be okay.