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i know i said i didn’t want to blog for now, but right now, i just feel so freaking down im crying like for the first time since Alevels i swear. so freaking depressing i just want to go to sleep right now. bye.

just be here, someone. anyone.

deep shit.

past few weeks havent been that good, so i dont really know how to blog without offending anyone. HA HA. i wanted to put up photos instead but wordpress photo upload thing is such a painnnnnnnnnnnnnn. and 9oclock shows are getting damn depressing it’s getting on my nerves. and i know i shouldnt feel this way but really, past few weeks, i don’t see the point in a lot of things anymore. i don’t see the point in whatever i’m doing. i felt really really on my own. as in, one big bubble with me inside -in my own world. i got through the couple of weeks literally on my own. and then i realised, truth is, i’m really on my own. even family ties and friendships are so vulnerable these days i cant and i dont even want to depend on them. i dont even dare do anything because im scared one wrong move and itll break. we’ll break. i’ll break. like i said im turning into one hell of an antisocial selfish unfeeling person putting up a facade half the time, if you know what i mean. trust is an issue and will always be a problem. feelings are non-existent. i miss having the iminmycomfortzone feeling. i miss saying what i really feel. i miss being able to do something meaningful. but what’s the point. better be on my own, and save all the troubles. i know, what a pity, a lot of time is wasted just feeling like this. 

but, oh well…

OH! :):):)

hello!!! jb trip was awesomeeeeee. muahhhahaa. i had kenny rogers for lunch, and marybrown for second lunch. HAHHAHAHA. and i bought myself two niceeeeee clothes that i like! i think that’s like an achievement for me alr! so comeee, clap louder than you would yesterday for Amy’s bravest stunt. (sorry, lazy explain. just laugh if you understand! if not, just clap along! :) )

feel quite high right now, i don’t exactly know why.

jb wasn’t that highfying, but, i just got high like about… three minutes ago.

1. about the same time i talked to busy-working loo,

who is probably the only one who saw me on tv on channel u last monday!
andddd, who just made two new friends, ms floor and ms wall.

HAHAHHAHA! i shall officially declare her sense of humour is changing drastically (for the better!) since she have been working alone in some office facing only walls and floors. hahaha.

2. and also about the same time i was looking back at my old thumbdrive. with all the photos from early years of j1! HAHHAHA OMG MAN. I SWEAR EVERYONE LOOK KENTAL. OKAY MAYBE IT’s JUST ME…. hahaha. but wahh, i should upload random photos of those two years ago photo man! damn retarded.

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anddd the very reason why i’m even looking through the photos is becauseee, i was searching for photos of (OH)huiting with me! because jengjengjeng,

it’s her birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

OH HUI TING!
the only person other than toots, who can call me banana! hohoho.

don’t worry, i know the we look damn cacat, and you all must be thinking i’m not in the right state of mind to be putting up retarded photos with my already retarded face! BUTTTT!, this is really the only photos i have with oht! so i dont care, must put up! :)

couldn’t decide which to put up, so i’m going to put up both. ‘

cos one have her being not interested (why ht why!) in taking a photo of me! or maybe i was just too excited! look at my face! hahahahha!

and the other one has me, not realising that she wants to take a photo with me! (YESSSS, i’m nice okay! i’ll be really interested to take a photo with her! heh )

hthththt! i’ve known her for a good six years.  classmates for lower sec days. kecoh, i’m always in between her and w.l in register list so diedie, there’s always me in the middle. hahah! be it, whatever class we’re having, our sitting position is always wl then me then her… so jengjengjeng, you can say that I’M THE THIRD PARTY in their very scandolous relationship since primary school days. *faints* and then we got separated and for the next two years, it was always just crashing with them during breaks or between classes. sometimes it made my day when i see hyperactive ht going “HELLO NANA” then laugh to herself! hahaha:) that’s why when i found out that ht (and edel) was stalking me to s26, i was quite relieved :):):)

okay, cut long grandparents story short, my point issss, oht is a really nice person to know, really easy to get along with! her laughters, i think, is the one thing i’ll remember her most for. happy birthday oht!  

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suddenly i feel like hugging all my friends. hahahaha! okay fine laaa, i’ll blew kisses instead. in belindapoon’s “beemboh” style.

MUAAAACKZXZXZXZXZZXZXZXZZX!!

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okay…. eeeeeeeee. i know. :X

kek!

hello!

miss me? i didn’t blog only for three days and some tingtong bugger blogger (kidding) kept begging me to update! hoho, probably the only loyal fan of iylinot hahhaha. okay apape ehhh yana.

anywayyy, due to my quite dead spirit, have been MIA this couple of days! butttt, today i have to blog becauseee, somebody birthday ehhh! yes yes,

Happy 19th birthday,

KEK!

(i think it’s dixon on the left, right?!) anywayyy, ive been wanting to upload this prom photo with kek since sooo long, but my face look really retarded. it’s realllly retarded. like worst than this.

yani can really account for it. it really look retarded. i told her to choose between the two prom pics with him, then she said both looked the same – retarded. so thereeeee! but okay la, i still like the HL photo better:):):)

haahhaa, he look like he’s sleeping with eyes like that eh? -.-

anddd i realised, i have all the s26 people’s photos with kek! we were supposed to make him a cd or something like that, but in the end…. HAHHAHA! jengjengjeng.

p/s: who want their photo with kek, ask from me! (don’t worry, it’s free) if not, it’s going to be gone like……. by May! hahhaa. it’s taking alotttt of space in the thumbdrive uh :/

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OH, just now, i was hopping and skipping around the kitchen AND THEN, when i wanted to step out of the kitchen into the living room, somehow, i lose my footing and…. fall. like bing bang bong bung beng man! crash like drama f1 racing car accident. tak bedek.

the worst thing is, i expected some sympathy from my fellow die-hard fans (read: my family) , but nooooo, FAT HOPE. they all laughed at me. LAUGHED. AT ME.ME.ME. haiiii. funny meh?! you try crash like that, you see funny or not arhhhh!!! :(

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just kidding, it was actually quite funny the way i crashed and landed. -.- but stilllllll, i think it’ll be more comforting if they didn’t laugh loudly in front of me. hahaha.

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overdue gila posts part 2 shall be up next! don’t worry, i never break my promise. right.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN KEK! he’s the nicest! especially post prelim time last year. *sighhhhh* i haven’t even thank him for that lor, but still, this entry should make up for it right! hahaha.

 

when we sigh about our problems, they grow D_O_U_B_L_E,

but when we laugh about them, they become BUBBLES!

sounds familiar? hahhaha! i think it’s funny. so… kek. happy eating cake. okay byeeee!:)

calm.

it bugs me abit that someone kept reading my post #141…. hmmm.

on a high (REALLY HIGH!) note,

NURIYLIANA, I’M SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU TODAY!!! :):):)

wahahaha. oh man, i feel like my life is finally getting back on track. i hope this feeling stays that way.

today was the mother of all productivity :):):)

i feel really really good. and i wish so so so much that you’re here to share this happybolala feel with me mannn… :/ and don’t worry, everything’s going to be ooookay. if it’s fated for you to be in there, then you’ll be in there. and if you’re not, well… that’s not going to happen. heh.

nongkrong man. nongkrong! (:

goodnight all, smile!:):):)